History

I have been doing a lot of reminiscing lately.  For some reason I remember the times when Tom was out of control with his glucose level.

The first time I observed it and understood what it was, my cousin (male) was at our home and Tom went upstairs and stripped naked and then came downstairs for more "fun".

My cousin left pretty quickly.

But things got so much more ugly later (before blogs) when he went very low (50's) every day and was combative about it.  It was always my fault and I was "controlling" and "abusive" to him.  He had trouble with work -- he was in IT and with Y2K he was out of work for roughly 3 months at a time.

It was truly horrible and I didn't know whether I could take much longer.  But I persevered (like so many of us) and it (he) got better once his jobs were more constant.

Today, I can tell you that he manages his glucose so much better,  And even more important he listens to me and tests whenever I asks and responds appropriately.  (you know juice etc.)  He still tries to sneak eating M&Ms, fairly often. I don't necessarily notice at the time. but when I check the jar, it gets emptier more quickly than I expect.  I rarely eat them so I keep them in stock for him.  He rarely goes high so its a good thing that he recognizes the need before I need to intervene.

It is amazing to me that life is so much easier and he is truly my best friend in life again.  BUT, I will never forget the bad times.

If you are experiencing these monumental challenges, I feel for you and want to give you my support.  Whether it is low glucose or high, the repercussions are awful.

That's my thoughts for today.  As I used to sign off,  I wish you a very good night's sleep.  My exhaustion certainly added to the problems so I think of sleep as a major balm to my challenges.

Best,