Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Happy New Year and all the stress that comes with it

The holidays are over and now that its back to real life, its looking to be a bad year for me.

Tom continues his daily low blood sugar time right before dinner and sometimes later again.  how does he manage at work?

My 86-year old uncle in Denver is not likely to live through the end of the year. My family is VERY close, and my cousins and I talk often.  So that will be very sad.

My brother in law (66 years old) has cancer and is not doing well; back in the hospital.  No sure how long he has.

Then there is my 90 year old mother-in-law who has breathing and walking problems.  Not sure how much longer she will be able to stay in her home.   Fortunately she pre-paid for next-level care and she is in North Carolina, so I don't have to participate directly in her care.  whew!

AND, my mom who is 86 years old.  She asked my sister and I to take her to urgent care and a doctor last week and this one.  She has not seen a doctor in 50-years so it was shocking to all of us.  she must be really sick.  she was diagnosed with bronchitis and given meds.  but she doesn't like taking them so she stopped before she was supposed to.  the doctor understood her desire to take fewer meds and gave her some new ones to try.  If she still feels badly next week, she should fill a new rx for an antibiotic - she doesn't need to see him again unless she wants to.

At first, I was unhappy about this approach, but now I get it.  She is 86 and doesn't want to change her life too much.  she gets to do that.  we have no doubt that she is perfectly sane -- so that is not an issue.  we just need to support her as best that we can.  

I also have a potentially lucrative business opportunity which takes my time and attention and stress.

The weather is cold and we have many days of grey skies.  I need to be careful with my own health.  Depression is always just a step away.  and of course I really don't want to get the flu or a cold!  Sigh.  At least i am still takng my deep water running class twice a week.

So I have a lot on my mind at the beginning of this year.  But all i can do is take one day at a time.